Sunday, April 19, 2009

feeling betrayed

I am so devastated. I got betrayed by somebody i trusted most, somebody that know almost all my secret. He betrayed me for so long and now only I know the reason. I seriously cannot believe that He is that guy that betrayed me, with this my trust level for anybody has dropped again, I will never trust anybody again,. He is just a guy that i really believe and tell him everything and share all my problems, when I was working back at Z.Now, i dont know how and why...the girl friend suddenly popped out and scolded me. I was so shocked, still not recovered from that. He is the type of guy , that a number of gurls will dream to have bf as, he is sweet and always stand up to help me, when i got bullied by the guys in Z. " Dont bully gurls, gurls are not for us to play tricks on"Said Mr.He! With the things he had done for me, i took Him as my Godbro, a really nice guy that helped me alot besides K and Tien How. He Now, Mr.He already betrayed me, I seriously dont know how to trust people around me. I hope that another Godbro of mine, will not hurt me, betrayed me behind my back.
And on the same week, i found out that, a few friend of mine in college that I am closed with, labelled me as a friend that only mix with certain group of ppl (top scorer's, rich, and people i can take advantage ofF) Crapx. Am i that type of person? So, my friends, do tell me how can I still trust people around me.They are being so nice in front of you but behind you, they just stabbed and Im dead.
I am so LOST! can someone please guide me through this, I want to leave this world that is full of so much misery and troubles.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Studying Life?

College life has never been easy for any of us..but it seems that it gets harder day by day, when ever, i thought i am coming to the end of second semester, i have not fail any paper,
i might not fail even one, so i tried my best to pass and have high score! But it seems luck is not on my side, I studied so hard and i cant make it , i miss it by a point. That is heartbreaking.
Sometimes i rather not study and fail , i would not be so sad.I studied so hard and i tought i could make it for my Fundamental of Nursing test,and well guess what POP out,all those things I have never heard before and it cant be found in the notes or any FON textBook. this is SOO sad.
Just praying hard that i can pass in my finals exam. I have a feeling that i will pass that is not enough now.
My school has a new policy and if u are getting lower than 3.59GPA we have to go study in the library. Sweat, they even said that if we got 3.59 it is still poorly done! dont u think it is abit unreasonable to call those getting 3.59 had poorly done their semestar exam? You cannot expect everybody to score high grade rite?
let me they u how they want us to study in the library.
if GPA is between 3.59 - 3.33 have to study 4 hours , 3.33- 3.29 have to study 6hours, 3.29- 3.0 have to study 8 hours and those if you cant make it for any formative paper , we are required to study 10hours in the library.
this is tough, it is so tough being in ACN. passing grade is 60marks and now...3.59 and above only can escape all those things . I supposed next time the passing marks will be 80.
Friends, the GPA 3.6 is actually alomost like the local uni that is the requirement for you to graduate with 1st class honour!!! I never expected myself to pass with that, I am happy to get grade between 3.33-3.59. But they are forcing all of us to get that!
Two words to describe it , Stressed and speechless!!!

What do you guys think?