Relationship!!!

What does it means to you?
When "relationship" words appears it doesnt mean that is only between couple.
It can be relationship between friends,family members,enemy and also strangers
In terms of relationship, it can be a positive or negative or mutual...
It is the feelings that is counted....If you have food feelings on some people, then your relationship is a positive one. Well, I really envy with those people that is in a relationship.

I really hope, i will have this type of relationship (not friends, family members is LOVERS)...
But I know i do not stand a chance, because that guy I am interested in, is in A RELATIONSHIP. (heartbroken). I really envy my friends, that have boyfriend. They have shoulders to lean over when they are sad and depressed. When they are sad,they have someone to support them. How i wish i have that type of relationship. Eventhough, i have my godbro to support me, still I need someone (Well, who doesnt need). I always dream to receive present during special occasion eg:birthday, valentines,anniversary,x-mas. I was in a relationship previously, believe it or not, i did not receive anything thru out the dating period. It is not that I am materialistic, is just that I want something that I can cherish. I never wished to get something expensive, even He got me a small and tiny pig..i will be so DELIGHTED. It was just a dream. Flashing back the memories, I had. I felt I was so stupid. I did not listen what my friend had advised me to do. I was stucked at that relaitionship for almost 2 years.

Finally it is over, and I proceed with my new life. Started to open up my heart for a new guy.However, luck was NEVER on my side. When I decided to know that special guy more, He is in a relationship. I was in love with him for quite some time. I dare not to approach him, when i have the courage to do so. He is in a relationship.(sadness). I prayed to God, that I will get over it soon and lead a normal life. If he cannot be mine. I just pray that He will still remain close to me, and never neglect me. Im so unlucky, always miss the chance!!! One thing for this, I just want him to KNOW the feelings I have for him. I do not want to keep it within myself.

Whatever it is , I think God has It reason for all this things. I cannot ask WHY. I just have to go with it....and bear with it.!

PS - Sorry for the grammatical error :)